Believer

Believer "extraction from mortality" ( 1989, 2007 )

I had to bought this shirt about 3 years ago when i noticed that Believer was releasing a new album.

i listened a lot of the Christian metal bands when i was younger and Believer was one of the best ones. The thing about Christian metal bands, as i see it nowdays( didnt get it when i was younger) is that they all wanted to sound like some other ( secular) band but with bold, Christian lyrics.. like Barren Cross or Bloodgood sounded like Iron Maiden, Mortification tried to sound like Morbid Angel, Cannibal Corpse etc etc, you get the point? Very few of them sounded original. Tourniquet, Believer, Stryper, couple of bands that i see now as "original" bands.. maybe some more..

It felt "safe" to listen Christian bands that had "safe" lyrics but heavy music, i understand it well, i was part of it back in the days. I had a rule maybe to age 14 or 15 that i shouldnt listen any "secular" bands ( i hate that word ) but i failed.. ;) luckily! CCM, i hate that term nowdays.. it`s too narrow-minded.. music is music, that`s all, all the bands have different messages

Now i feel nostalgic, i have to put my top 10 Christian metal bands list ( 80`s and 90`s )

1. Believer

2. Tourniquet

3. Stryper

4. Vengeance Rising

5. Paramaecium

6. Saviour Machine

7. Living Sacrifice

8. Betrayal

9. Whitecross

10. Mortification

of course there are other good ones also like Circle of dust, Klank, Extol, Schaliach etc etc..

GUAPO ( 2006 )

Guapo "Black Oni" ( 2006 )

I think i heard Guapo back in 2005 for the first time, little after when Black oni was released.

They played in Turku, 2006, awesome show, that is where i bought that shirt. There wasnt that much people though..

Sullivan is also a member of Ulver nowdays + Aethenor + Miasma& the carousel..

nice band indeed!

Solstafir + Sufjan Stevens

Solstafir "lady" ( 2010 )

Bought this shirt from their show in Turku. Really nice band, and through our vinyl releases we are labelmates via Svart records. I think i have seen them live maybe 3 times, 2 times in Turku and one time in Germany, in summer breeze festival where we also played with Callisto.

Sufjan Stevens "michigan" ( 2009 )

When i heard this artist long time ago, i didnt like it at all. Sounded too indiecrap to my ears, but things change, feelings change, nowdays, i really enjoy this artist. There is something pure in Sufjans music that i cannot describe, something celestial or something..

No love lost, when all is said and done!

Carcass "Heartwork" ( 1993, 2005 )

I think the original version of this shirt came in 1993 or 1994 because heartwork was released back then. I bought this shirt from some internet site in 2005.

Man got to have Carcass shirt, right? ( Actually my wife hates this shirt because of the ugly long haired guys on the back ) i think the guys look good! ok, at least Bill Steer and Walker..

Carcass vocals influensed me a lot back in when we started Callisto, or actually it was Zao first and then i noticed, what? Dan W has obviously taken some influence from Walker..

Maybe one of the best metal bands out there. Maybe the best?

IRON WILL

Grand Magus "iron will" ( 2008 or 2009 )

Bought this shirt when Grand Magus played last time, here in Turku. I think it was 2009.

Great heavy metal band!

Singer was the singer of Spiritual Beggars earlier, but not anymore.

Check out the drummers other band, Plankton. Great 60/70`s stylish band from Stockholm.

Ulver

Ulver "Shadows of the sun" ( 2007 )

Ordered this shirt along the vinyl + signed photograph, yes i`m a fanboy!

This Ulver album goes to my top3 Ulver albums.

What is my top3?

1. Perdition City

2. Shadows of the sun

3. Teachings in silence ( 2 eps )

Number four would be Bergtatt.

So you could say that i`m new school Ulver fan, my first Ulver album that i listened was Perdition City back in 2002 or 2003.. and i`m not that guy who yells at shows "play those old black metal songs" :)

Kolt

Kolt "Cowboy" ( 2006, 2007 )

Can`t remember when i bought this shirt from Kim ( the singer of Kolt ) i think it was 2006. Or maybe in 2005 ?

Kolt is a Finnish band and we have played with them couple of times over the years. I know all the guys in the band, nice guys, especially i know Kim really well. I think i met Kim 2002 in Turku for the first time, i have a nice story about this, but too lazy to tell it right now.. maybe some other day..

As some of you have noticed that i`m getting 30 soon, so maybe this is something like remembering the "good old times" through shirts :) i dont know, i am very nostalgic person.. Band shirts include certain history to me and the oldest ones go way back to 96 or 97 so that`s a long time.

Joensuu 1685 + Converge

Not that fitting pair ? :)

Joensuu 1685 "logo" ( 2009 )

Great Finnish band, coming from the same area where i am coming originally.

Saw them 2 times live, both times were great! The drummer and bass player have a new band called "Siinai" check it out.

Converge "angel" ( 2001 or 2002 )

This shirt has huge nostalgic feeling to me. i Bought it from Oslo, from records store, dont remember the name.

I think it was 2002 when we played there with Callisto, or maybe 2001 when we we`re seeing some bands in romjuls rock, the first time i visited Norway. But anyway, nice shirt and great band.

Om + Sleep

Om "swans" ( 2007 )

I bought this shirt along the "Pilgrimage" vinyl from Southern Lord. I like the design a lot, nice shirt, nice band also! :) Saw them live in 2008 if i remember right, in tavastia. This band is basically Sleep without Matt Pike. They started couple of years later after Sleep was disbanded.

Sleep "Dopesmoker" ( 2006 or 2007 )

This is the band before Om and High on fire. Sleep started in 1990 and disbanded in 1999. Altough they did a re-union in 2009. Dopesmoker song was featured in Broken flowers movie when these two rednecks are driving with some pick-up truck and Sleep is banging in the backround.

Doom over the world ( Cathedral + The Hidden hand )

Cathedral "tour 2006" ( 2006 )

Actually i was supposed to go to this show to Helsinki in 2006 but i was work or something, and friend of mine bought this shirt for me. Really dig this band!

The Hidden hand "whiskey" ( 2007 )

Bought this shirt from Southern lord webshop along the cd. Been fan since this band started to play. Of course i like Spirit Caravan also, plus Wino`s numerous other projects.

Eagle Twin

Eagle Twin "vulture" ( 2009 )

Bought this one from Southern lord webshop last year, along the vinyl.

Not necessary my all time favourite band, but maybe one of the best bands coming out lately from Southern Lord?

Mantric, Extol, Lengsel, Ganglion

What combines these bands ? = Almost the same 5 guys in the same bands :)

Mantric "logo" ( 2010 )

I bought this one from the internet along the cd, i think this band combines little bit of all bands i mentioned above. Nice band.

I think i have some special tide to Oslo "scene", first of all we played our first abroad show with Callisto in Oslo, i think it was in 2002, Extol also played there. Before that i have been big fan of Extol long time, also with Lengsel. I think i have witnessed Extol like 4 - 5 times live..

Guys from Selfmindead also moved to Oslo long time ago. From Sweden. Nowdays they are Benea Reach. Nice bands. Both bands give me good memories.

Before our Callisto show we visited Oslo, "romjuls" rock in 2001 with some friends, nice memories..

I think Mantric and Lengsel are the only Active bands from that collective.

Story could go on and on.. but you get the point. :)

Hauen Matti!!

High on fire "monster" ( 2005 )

This shirt has a lot of feeling and nostagia for me. We were touring in England with High on Fire, one of the best memories ever! I bought that shirt from that tour, or actually Matt Pike gave it to me, and all of us in Callisto. Some of us took the limited vinyl of Blessed Black Wings" album ( stupid me)

After the tour i started to listen High on fire little bit more and it became one of my favourite bands.

Great memories..

Woven hand!

Wovenhand "elk" shirt ( 2009 )

I think most of you people know how big Wovenhand fan i am :) i even have the tattoo of mosaic cover in my arm.

I think everything started with 16hp in 2002 or 2003, first i wasnt that big fan of Folklore album when my friend kimmo borrowed it to me ( actually the cd was one of the majabacka boys property, big hail to them!) But it didnt took long when i got my hands of wovenhand first album ( released 2002 ) i think it was 2003 or early 2004. So after that i have been collecting almost everything i could find from DEE and whole Denver Area bands.

i have been 3 times in wovenhand show, first time was 2007 in Stockholm, second 2009, also in Stockholm, third time in Tampere, Finland. Every time DEE tear the place down!

Very important band for me, musically and spiritually..

Oranssi Pazuzu

Oranssi Pazuzu "logo" ( 2010 )

Great new band from Finland, we are going to play with them soon with Callisto.

Mix of Pink Floyd and Burzum ? Sounds crazy but great band indeed!

Jesus was entombed..

but was risen on the third day

Entombed "The godfather" ( 2008 )

Best Death metal from Sweden ( maybe the best death metal band in the whole world )

I went to see Entombed 2 years ago to Turku and bought the shirt, actually i have liked Entombed quite a long time.. Callisto actually played with Entombed in 2003 in Tampere klubi.. oh boy, we were nervous..

Too much darkness, not enough light..

Anathema "Hindsight" ( 2009 )

I bought this one from the web, along with the cd "Hindsight"

Have been fan of anathema like 10 years or so.. i have to admit, as silly as it sounds, this is perfect music for the self-pity and moody moments..

i like anathema from the alternative4 album to the hindsight, not so big fan of the latest..

Cult Of luna

Cult of Luna "owl" ( 2009 )

I bought this shirt same time when i bought their latest vinyl "Eternal kingdom" nice shirt, but it`s too small for me little bit, or am i too fat ?

Cult of luna has a special place in my life, i think it was 2000 or 2001 when i saw them live in Vaasa, it blow my mind, in that point they had only Switchblade/Col split vinyl out.

in 2005 we played with them little tour in Finland, nice time indeed! I have one older shirt also from 2005..

Mastodon

Mastodon - "Crack the skye" ( 2009 )

Mastodon? What can i say :)

I bought this shirt from San Franscisco last year when i was travelling with my wife there. We were on the "roadtrip" all over the usa.

I saw add in the paper that Mastodon and The mars volta were going to play in a festival and we were "accidently" in a right town :) Festival in San Frisco in the hippie park ? how nice was that ? The shows of the both bands were great!

I bought also Mars volta shirt but friend of mine borrowed it and lost it! Not a nice thing..

Extol "undeceived" ( 2000, 2001 )

I think this shirt is from 2000, but i bought it from their show which i was attending in 2001, actually 2 shows ( Helsinki and next day in Oulu ) Great shows!

I started to listening Extol in 1998 when their debut album came out, been a huge fan since that.. Actually we shared the stage with Extol in 2002 with my band Callisto. Maybe i have seen them live 3 - 5 times ?

Sadly they are not active anymore.

Sabbath bloody Sabbath

Black Sabbath "vol4" ( 1972, 2007 )

Every man have to have Black Sabbath shirt? Right?

I bought this in 2007 or 2008.. better later than never.. yes i bought this also from some crappy internet webshop..

Liha on heikko..

Fleshpress "forest" ( 2004, 2005? )

Not sure which year i bought this one, i think it was 2004. Ordered this one from the band directly.

Nice shirt, i like the design a lot.

one of the first sludge bands coming out from finland? i think this band was formed in 1998 or something..

blog continues..s

Pink Floyd "Dark side of the moon" ( 1971, 2007 )

I bought this shirt from internet in 2007, i had to have Pink Floyd shirt and obviously i couldnt buy that shirt back in 70`s :)

Classic stuff.

I have to say Meddle, Animals, ummagumma and dark side are my favourite albums..

t-shirt blog part V

Corrosion of Conformity "In the arms of God" ( 2005 )

I ordered this shirt from the internet, it looks like really old, but it isnt.

I really like "deliverance" "Wiseblood" and "Americas volume dealer" albums. Good old southern heavyrock!

This shirt doesnt bear any big "nostalgia" or anything, nice shirt anyway.

ok, but shirt speaks for itself.

t-shirt blog part IV

Neurosis "Sovereign" t-shirt ( 2000 )

This is the oldest t-shirt so far in this blog :) i remember i was living in Kokkola and had been listening Neurosis for a while and i ordered this t-shirt from internet, sending some usa dollars in a envelope :) After years passed, i took a tattoo of that logo which is on the front of the shirt.

This is still my favourite shirts, unfortunately it has worn out quite a lot ( and smells bad)

Neurosis is still in my top5 all time bands, that`s why i took the tattoo years ago..

t-shirt blog part III

Plainfade "black metal" t-shirt ( 2005, 2006 ? )

Not sure which year i bought this one.. but the first time i saw this band live was 8.10.2004, it was completely suprise to figure it out this amazing band, i went to Tampere with some friends, actually i didnt have any clue about the bands of that evening, but Plainfade got my attention totally!

After seeing that show i managed to make a contact with the guys of Plainfade, and we agreed to make some mutual shows together with Callisto. Those shows happened in 2005 and 2006(i think i bought this shirt from one of those shows) hopefully some more will follow in the future.

Story behind the shirt is quite nice. According to words of Juho : "We sent our band name to a logo designer of various black metal bands from Norway, after waiting couple of weeks, we received this one, for free"

( Actually if i remember right, i still havent paid this shirt for the guys.. ) sorry i will pay it someday!

T-shirt blog part II

Zao - "horror" design ( 2004 )

This not my favourite zao shirt, but anyway..

I bought this shirt from Denmark when i was going to see Zao live with some good friends in 2004 when they were touring "Funeral of God" album. The show was my dream come true because i have been fan of Zao since 1998. The vocalist of Zao was huge influence to my own singing long time ago.

I have 2 other Zao shirts also, but i`m not using them because they have worn out in time.. i have classic "where the blood and fire bring the rest" shirt and second one is also bought in 2004 when i was touring with callisto in Europe and one distro sold those t-shirts.

To my opinion Zao has couple of classic albums : Spinter shards.. Where the blood and fire bring the rest and liberate te ex inferis and the split with TFU songs are also great! there might be couple of nice songs in "ST" also but to be honest 1997 - 2001 era Zao was my cup of tea.

T-shirt blog starting ( stolen idea from various people)

Part 1

Stumm "devilution" T-shirt http://www.mikseri.net/artists/?id=34834 ( 2004, 2005? )

I think i bought this shirt maybe 4 or 5 years ago directly from the singer of Stumm ( jukka ) one of the few sludge bands coming from the Finland, this band is also from Turku, where i have been living for the past 8 years now.

I like the design a lot because it represents my thoughts a lot ( or lack of ) People going more stupid day by day.. regression of humanity.

I`m not sure is this band still active, i think i saw them couple of times live in the past..

I`m not that good at this?

I have to admit, that i am not that good at this blog thing :)

Music things first: Went to Killing Joke show 5 days ago with good friends, nice show indeed!

Callisto is starting to get in the song-writing mood, the beginning was hard, like it`s always for us.. lazy and slow bastards! I think we have really good stuff coming out this time.. wont go to the details because you never know what will happen when the time is going on and the songs are evolving etc.. but it`s nice to be with the guys again in the old smelly practice room! ( minus Arto, who is living in Helsinki ) It`s a shame, but he will be joining us actually next week, travelling to Turku, nice! I think we will be doing songs, five of us, and recording demos and sending them to Arto and he can do his part in Helsinki, and of course when studio is coming closer we have to practise all together.

Weeping Pilgrim? We have nailed 6 songs now, and maybe record one extra song, we are missing some little synth parts and little bit of vocals then everything is ready for the mixing process.. time will tell is it going to be a demo or an proper album ? I really like how they sound, really raw and spontanious..

plus i have some musical projects in mind.. one of them being collaboration with Paavoharju guys.. looking forward to it!

My other life ? the visions and the dreams? i dont know.. at the moment quite slow and quiet..

But i wont go to apathy, still waiting..

i dont know.. that`s all for now..

listening lps

The devil`s blood - The time of no time evermore

Jex Thoth - 2008 album

Jex Thoth - Witness

Dungen - Skit i allt

Joose Keskitalo - Tule luokseni kulta

Bo Hansson - Attic thoughts

In time you give the reason for this withering season?

Just reading the last pages of Joy Division "Touching from the distance" book, written by Deborah Curtis, Ian wife. The book was full of despair and suffering, almost everything bad that happened were objected towards to Deborah, ok, Ian had really bad epilepsy also, but neverthless, the book wasnt that enjoyable. But nice music Joy Division made in their time..

I hate people that are complaining all the time for the things that are not that bad, the things that can be overcome, but here i go myself.. Not going to go to the details, but the life is not going like i thought it should go.. i dont know, basically everything is fine, but i feel that i am missing something all the time ( yes longing in the spiritual way and missing the point of my life)

I know, i do things that are "invisible" to outside world and i know that someone knows.. the way it should be. But i need more..

I dont know.. i dont have anymore to say.. i gave my life to him.. my heart and soul

Satan, your kingdom must come down!

16 days

Since i last wrote something.. maybe there is not happening anything in my life ?

last 2 weeks we have been in studio with Weeping Pilgrim, making demo or album? 4 songs are almost ready now, 3 - 4 songs waiting to be recorded. I think they will sound nice in the end.. Not sure what we are gonna make with them, my goal is to make a proper release, but the sounds will determine where they will end up..

12th day went to see Watain, what a show, full of rotten animals and satan worshipping ( birds mainly ) but i have to be honest, watain is not my favourite black metal band, i think they lack in song-writing, comparing like Emperor, Deathspell omega or Dissection to name a few nice ones. Klubi havent smell that bad for ages.. i think they had to clean up that place from the roof to floor after the show..

I think i will start to post some videos here, i have some ideas to film our cooking moments with the guys and some random stuff.. there is some moments that deserve some filming attention! :)

Just bought a tickets to a Dungen show.. and also a newest vinyl of Dungen. Great band indeed!

The smoke rises from the west.. indeed the evil thing is lurking in my weakest times.. but that`s life, i have won the battle, almost..

Callisto ? Everything is slow like always.. we have to force ourselves, and it`s not nice, but after you get pass the awkardness it`s not that bad.. we have some good tunes coming, hopefully! Maybe going back couple of steps and leaving the 70`s where it should be, time will tell..

playlist

Killing Joke

Harvestman

Electric Wizard

Robert plant ( band of joy )

Enslaved

Today is the day!

What happened ?

I have been sick for a week now, at the moment i`m getting better, but still aching little bit...

yesterday activated my weight lifting hobby ( not in the macho way ) thinking to go running tomorrow, got to keep the temple in shape!

We have been rehearshing the songs for my other band, today we are entering the studio, here in Turku. Actually the first time i visited "auran panimo" it was way back in 1999 when i played bass on couple of songs to my friends hardcore band and maybe 4 - 5 years ago we made pre-production demo for Callistos album, i think it was for Noir.. or maybe for TNU.

Our aim is to make good sounding promo-demo and send it to labels ( yes, the old school way) but if the sounds happen to be good enough, we might consider to make it official release ( ep or album depending how many minutes it will contain )

It will be exciting time because my instruments are mainly acoustic ( acoustic 6 and 12 string, bouzuki and banjo ) i will add some soundscapes after all is recorded..

Found some good bands through friend suggestion : Killing Joke and Lucifer`s friend, nice bands..

I have been cleaning the house, washing laundry, cleaning 2 toilets, arranging things to their righful place etc.. so everything will look nice when my wife is coming from work. This is my task for next 9 months.. exciting ? ;) of course i make music all the time, working in my homechurch etc etc.. besides all the cleaning ;)

ok, take care you folks, i will go and eat something..

Summer is gone.. i like it!

Summer is gone, and so are the live shows for Callisto for now ( some single shows might come ) but now we are hopefully starting to make some new songs.

Summer breeze in Germany was nice! Solstafir played with us, great band! and of course there was some other good bands also playing with us. One weird thing happened at the merch table, when i was picking up our merch stuff after the show, there was the singer of Watain also and he heard that i spoke Finnish to our mixing guy and suddenly said "saatana on jumala" ( satan is good ) and i almost responded to him but he disappered quite quickly.. :)

on saturday we played in Helsinki ( 28th day ) it was quite ok show, but we had some technical problems a lot and the sounds sucked on the stage, blaah blaah, i wasnt feeling comfortable at the stage, but what i heard it was quite ok show after all.. Now i am getting sick ( maybe because the weather is changing? )

My other band Weeping Pilgrim is starting to record a demo ( or album ? ) if the recording happen to sound good enough, interesting times indeed! i havent recorded any acoustic instruments before ( except some random mandolin and acoustic things to Callisto albums ) A step away from the electric world, now everything is naked..

playlist

Leonard Cohen

Joni Mitchell

Opeth

Sufjan Stevens

Wovenhand

Brutal Assault

I wish that something like that would happen in my life too..

What has happened ?

I was spending amazing week with good friends and with my wife in Nötö, an island in the middle of the sea, relaxing time. Second week started also with some cottage life in my wifes mother cottage, then on thursday we flew with Callisto to Brutal Assault festival in Czech rep. Maybe the best festival ever ? my words cannot describe the feeling of happiness what i experienced there.. nice bands, nice people etc etc..

Today came back from Europe, i am super tired ( not that much of sleep and miles of walking and listening bands all the time ) but nice tiredness :)

ok, too tired to write anything more..

good night

Seclusion..

Revive life in uncharted woods, as we inhale
Creation wept and understood the unearthly way..

I dont know, maybe this one week in the seclusion makes good for my mind and soul.. i will be completely isolated for 7 days..

i feel better now with my inner struggles and visions.. but i need more from this life..

i had decent week, had one gig with Callisto and did "one" gig with the KK praisemusic group in mikaelinseurakunta

http://www.turunsrk.fi/portal/fi/seurakunnat/mikaelinseurakunta/mikaelinkirkko/

plus i had some interesting meetings with some people who could change some history.. time will tell.. wilhem tell..

i dont know, let see.. i dont have so special to say now..

take care!

on seventh day..

And on the seventh day God finished his work that he had done, and he rested on the seventh day from all his work that he had done.. and on seventh day mr polso entered his blog again.. i have rested enough...

I feel like i am not seeing and doing everything that i should "my vision is blurred" like in Extol song.. i feel like this world is not giving me all the things that my soul is yearning( of course this world is not giving me anything what my truly inner is wanting). Dont get me wrong, i like basic daily routines, but besides that i need more, something more to this dying core!!!! yes, i feel frustrated, bored and i feel useless, what is my purpose here ? i dont know.. days go by, again again i do things that i shoudnt do.. not so bad things but some little things that irritates me and takes my attraction from the highest..

yes i know what i should do, but i am too lazy and maybe i am waiting for some big miracle angel coming next to me and saying "this is what you should do markus" wouldnt that be nice? :) yes it would. i dont know.. maybe someday something happens, maybe i should fast little bit ?

ok, but thats life.. i am not hiding my feelings now..

whats happening this week ? a lot of music playing, Callisto is having a show in Turku, and KK music group is also having a gig in Mikaels church.. come and see.

take care folks, i try to, dont worry, i am ok :)

playlist

Sabbath Assembly

Jex Thoth

Sigur Ros

Down

Sahg

Earthless

Sysmä!!!

Crazy weekend ( 16, 17 and 18th day )

On friday went to Sysmä to celebrate my cousins birthdays, it was nice time, small village in the middle of Finland, nice surroundings, they live by the "päijänne" went to see some "nighttime" of Sysmä, oh boy, it was wild, everyone dancing like maniacs and drunk as hell! :) Small town fun.. honest fun? i think there is like 3000 people living there... stayed up till 3 am and slept in a really hot hot room.. i hate this summer!

on saturday went to Helsinki to meet some relatives and friends, and again went to sleep about 3am or something, so lack of sleep the whole weekend :) on sunday it was jail time, we held a ceremony in local prison in Turku, it was nice time, we have been there earlier before..

ok, this writing seems so boring even to my eyes so i will quit now and come back when i have some real things to say..

playlist

Lilium

Anekdoten

Wovenhand

Sink

Grand Magus

Ataturk band

Someday ?

Hi to everyone!

on 7th day we went to Kokkola and played one show there, it was nostalgic time, maybe not the best place for a decent show, but it was ok. Had the chance to see some relatives and some old old friends from the past. It was weird to play in Kokkola ( actually it is Kälviä ) about 7 kilometres from the place where we played was Callisto first rehearshal place ( 1997 - 2000 ) me and Juho, the bass player of Callisto played in the same band before we formed Callisto in 2001. Weird feelings.. :) And i sow our old Rosetemple roadie Tero Nygård there, i havent seen that guy maybe in 6 - 7 years ? We drove right after the show to Turku, crazy ? yes.

on 9th day we went to island Nötö about 65 km from Turku with my wife and her grandparents, it was relaxing time!

I have some doubts that we manage to record Weeping Pilgrim material this month.. seems that time is flying too fast and nothing is happening ( ok we have songs ready and we have played them ) but that`s not enough. I think we have good songs and they deserve to be heard, there is too much shitty music around the world if i can be little cynical and rude...

Did i tell you its too hot in here! i cannot do the things that i want to do because of the heat.. damn heat! I love autumn and winter.

Still waiting my vision to be completed, or maybe i dont notice it that it`s already happening and i have done some parts of my work here, a lot is to be done, i know deep down inside me and it frustrates me sometimes.. but i have to be patient. But i dont complain ( little bit ) this is my dream come true time, but there is so much things that i want to do and many of the things needs some other people and usually i find myself being disappointed, but no can do, i know we have our own lives.. and my situation is blessed at the moment and i cannot demand the same amount of time that i have now from others.. complex situation.

Flowers are almost dying in our yard because of the heat.. but i found there was 2 -4 cherrys in our cherry three! :) my dear neighbour is offering me some food soon.. nice time!

i have found this writing really inspiring and therapeutic... its nice.

take care, bye!

playlist at the moment

- All the great Denver area bands

- Satyricon

- Meshuggah

- Anekdoten

- Deathspell Omega

- The walkabouts

- Dead can dance

Is there anybody out there ?

Kokkola trip was nostalgic! :) sow almost every relative i have there and some good old friends from the past. nice trip indeed. But to be honest, i have really good memories from my hometown, i lived there 21 years of my life. But at the moment i like live in Turku, no going back to north..

and then came the Tuska festival, i went there with my two good friends in crime... 3 main bands didnt disappoint me that i was plan to see: The unholy trinity of norwegian black metal : Satyricon, Ihsahn and Mayhem. Extreme music, the lyrics = not my cup of tea, but i have liked black metal for years now, some see big contradiction being christian and listening black metal, to be honest i dont care, there is so much bigger and important issues in life to worry about, that is my opinion. It was nice trip!

Then back to Turku.. it`s freaking hot in here, i dont like it. ok its nice, but now its too hot.

I think everyone who knows me, knows that i am man with big plans and high hopes.. its really hard because most of the time i see myself being let down and thinking too negative and my plans dont go like i want them to go.. but maybe that is the main problem, like i said earlier, I am trying too much.. but its hard to trust God sometimes and let him plan my life.... when something is not happening i let myself freedom to sink down to misery and self-pity which is really bad, i know it, because normally i am positive guy. i dont know, right at the moment, i dont see any purpose why i am spending this year "free" but i think its natural..

These lyrics express my feelings quite well at the moment :

I close my eyes
It's not the picture of You I see
The impressions, the sight, the thoughts
Are stuck into my mind

My vision is blurred
I can't see clearly
I can't hear Your voice
It's all disturbing my peace of mind

Something inside tearing me apart
Trusting myself to find the way out
Leading me just deeper into
A well of confusion and mourning

There is nothing else for me to do
But to put my hope and trust in You
I know You will lead me through
When my eyes are focused on You

Let me dwell in Your shelter
Let me live in Your shadow
Free me from these destroying plagues
Your faithfulness is my shield and protection

ok, i dont have anything special to say anymore, people, stay true to your vision! dont let anyone take it away.

Hello!!

"juhannus" came and went.. not my cup of tea. Spent nice time with my wife and good friends by the lake of finnish nature!

oh and wednesday was birthday party of my good friend.. nothing more about that.. gone to oblivion! :) Enjoying the sun? maybe little bit, but i have to say i am more of an winter person, i have to admit it.

Going to tomorrow to Kokkola ( the place where i lived my life for 21 years ) and i am going to make that trip with my parents, huh, how scary is that ? :) We will meet some relatives and me the nostalgic can burst my emotions out!!! i will be back in thursday..

Weeping Pilgrim project is starting to get in shape.. maybe recording next month..

take care people!

Awake, my soul..

Frustration trying to ruin my days of glory..

Ok, i know i was planning all these big "things" what i am going to do when i am free from my daily work.. of course i know that not all things are going like I want them to go and of course i sometimes tend to forgot what HE wants me to do.. maybe i should concentrate and steer my thoughts away from myself and let myself to be taken by someone else.. but it`s hard.

Of course i have had the opportunity to make these "things" that i planned, the music thing, church activities plus much more.. but still i feel empty, like i am just wasting my time and not doing anything meaningful, or maybe i`m doing but i dont notice it so well, maybe i should be more objective?

ok, enough of this.. We had a good sessions with the Callisto yesterday, or maybe "good" is overrated word, but at least the moment when we played some new stuff was inspiring. Thought there was 2 guys missing, but this situation seem to be repeating more often these days.. no can do.

Today my good friend is aging, he is thirty now, we are helding a birthday party in my place today.. he actually dont know it yet.. gonna be fun time..

ok, but take care folks..

playlist at the moment :

Pink Floyd

Townes van Zandt

Neil Young

CSN

Awake, my soul ( The original soundtrack )

Emmylou Harris

Weeping Pilgrim

Hi to all!

I was hanging out with friends yesterday, eating good food and spending good time and i heard that some people read my blog ? Heh, i thought that nobody reads this, even some people in Italy.. I`m not going to let that affect to my "writings" ( i`m not saying that i dont care ) but to me this diary keeps me dated to things what i do in my free year from my daily job. I think it`s nice to read afterwards what has happened to my life in past days, weeks and months. Maintaining my sanity so to speak.

So what has happened to my last days? First of all in 9th of june i went to see Brian "head" Welch, formely the guitar player of Korn, the band i was listening back in the 90`s, as everyone knows he left Korn in 2005 or 2006 because he couldnt be in the band anymore because he became Christian and wanted to pursuit his own art and vision. Normally i don`t get it always when big rock stars change their entire life when they become born again Christians, but after reading the book of Brian, i understood it all. Sometimes man has to make some big and maybe difficult decisions in their lives when something more powerful than we speaks them to do.

Maybe something like this happened to me when i decided to take year off from daily work and dedicate to this following year to making music and the other part: following what God wanted to tell me.. ok i dont want to sound too fundamental, but i HAD to follow the voice that was speaking to me and to be honest it feels right, even though i dont know all the things what He has in store for me.. time will tell. The "head" show was nostalgic and nice experience even though i am not that big fan of that kind of music anymore, but the thing in Christian music has bothered me for years, the music always comes last, lyrics first, dont get me wrong the lyrics are important but i have always thought that music should be good and high quality then you can build lyrics to the top of good music, get the point ?

Speaking of music, besides callisto where i write music and play, i have had this new project that started out last year "Weeping Pilgrim" we have took one step further towards the actual recordings.. we have loads of songs in store, and couple of days ago we met this nice guy who is going to record a demo or Ep for us ( depending how everything sounds after the recordings ) You can check some really raw demos from our myspace page www.myspace.com/weepingpilgrim yes, it is a lot different than Callisto music, but that was my main goal anyway.

Nothing really special happening at the moment, just doing sports, making music and spending time with my wife and good friends. Oh and one thing ( really small thing ) i started to sell some second hand goods in flea market, all the money is going to my homechurch "Kotikirkko" which i have attended last 7 - 8 years.. i think it`s really good thing because Kotikirkko is really good place and we are always lacking money..

listening at the moment a band called Watain, which lyrics i really dont appreciate but the music is quite ok.. it`s really weird, i read one interview of them and one thing what was headlining the whole interview was how much they give credit to satan and dedicate their music to glorify satan.. ok this sounds weird but i tend to speak the truth and honestly as possible always, like i do know. Even though i am Christian and i play music, my band(s) have always maintained certain "Spiritual" aspects which i really like, but have always tried not to speak too loud about our beliefs ( to some bands it fits, dont get me wrong ) because it`s really irritates people, you get the point? ( all the bible bangers etc etc ) I like to write things that i pursuit in my life but this faith that i have is really personal so thats why i like let people to think and digest a while about the lyrics and then make their decisions about the band, is their music good? do i appreciate what they sing? its really hard to get into band when you are immediately being forced to hear or see some beliefs, politics, activism, satanism etc etc..

I know that example in the metal world it`s really ok to speak about mutilation of people, gore things, satan worshipping, etc etc.. and in the black metal world the lyrics are really important and it seems that the main thing is that the bands have big urge to get the opportunity to speak LOUD what they want to say about their beliefs. But when it comes to Christianity, everything is forbidden, even though many bands including Christian members dont even preach in their shows, write gospel type of lyrics, etc you get the point ? ok, i know this is really old issue, but always relevant? and i am not here to teach anyone, just throwing some ideas.. you go figure it out yourself! let me know what you think.. :)

Ok, i will go and see some movie with my neighbours and with my wife.. "it`s raining today" like Scott Walker is singing.. it fits for me, i am not that big fan of sunny weather, ok its nice, but this is ok..

ok, i will try to update this more often, but i think its useless to write something that has no point.. or not..

take care people!

Marathon

What happened to yesterdays? :)

4th of june went to Stockholm with my wife and some good friends ( me and the friends mostly having fun ) my wife had been preparing for a marathon for a long time.. 5th of june came and what a day it was! There was like 18.00o people running 42 km!!! almost 5000 finnish people...

My wife did a good job there! rest of the trip we were just hanging out and eating good food and of course when you are in Stockholm you have to go shopping! :)

Tomorrow going to see Brian "head" welch in nosturi, helsinki.. former Korn guitar player playing his solo-material. Lets see what happens..

Went to running today, didnt went so well that i wanted.. it is like this sometimes.. :) Maybe going to gym also today.. lets see..

Starting to get in the mood

of the new beginning..

What happened in the past days ?

Sunday we went back to Tampere ( we had our show there in the same place on wednesday ) "back to the accident place" so to speak.. Now it was time for the Wovenhand show..

What a show! but i have to say seeing them 2 times in Stockholm was better than this show.. i am not saying that this one was worse or anything but earlier was little bit better.. DEE leaded the ritual like a possessed prophet of doom! that guy has some inner demons to let it out for sure.

They played maybe 4 - 6 new songs, couple songs from Consider, nothing from the first one? maybe one from ten stones, 2 - 4 from Mosaic.. i had my mom and dad with me + 50 other Turku residents maybe ? :) crazy Turku people..

monday was the gym / wife / taco day.. plus i was having farewells with my new friend maurizio evangelista which i met in my "old" working place.. nice guy. He moved to Helsinki.. good luck man!

yesterday went running with wife and after that did some walleyboll with my friends in Kotikirkko.. nice day. + recorded 3 - 4 demos of new Callisto songs and sent them to other guys via email.. i have something like 10 - 12 new "songs" to new Callisto album, other guys have also some songs, time will tell which ones will be ending to "vol 4" :)

yep, nothing so special happening at the moment.. quiet life..

Valhalla rising.. but the host of heaven descents..

indeed it feels sometimes like that.. not going to go any details.. but life is sometimes unbearable, and now i am speaking of all thing summoned around me ( my life, others lifes, etc etc ) normally i am not an person who complains, people know that. Now when i am recovering of my bands gig cancelling, something new comes ahead..

yesterday i went to see a movie Valhalla Rising! i really loved that movie, was perfect to my feelings at the moment.. so is wovenhand which is playing in my ears at the moment and plus Today will see the Eugene and his company! i love that band! even got the tattoo..

The beast he plays his harp He does deceive the hearts from the new WH album. i should be sleeping by now... I dont care if no-one reads this, i have founded that this is really good therapy for me in some weird way :) Take care people, i have been quite negative now.. but cant help about it. Tomorrow is better day! ( or this day ) Markus antero

By the pain i see in others..

Happines turns into darkness..

Yesterday was really nice day ( most of the day ) We were playing with Callisto for the first time in 5 months, really nice, spiritual and moody show indeed, but we had to skip one song and interupt our ritual, because one of our member was feeling ill and really sick ( not going to go to the details, its not important ) so the perfect day ended to darkness..

My feeling in general is really complicated, i am basically "free" now for an year but it seems that some wicked spirit is luring out in the corners and doing bad to my closest ones.. i am just figuring out what is the point to all this misery and sickness around me ?

Sometimes its hard to keep up the faith and see the point in all this ?

I just want to say we need to take care of our closest ones even though its really hard sometimes, but helping the others is keeping my spark of life burning..

I still believe in the son, without it there is no point in this life.. giving up is not the answer, had to rid off all apathy and cynical feelings..

Take care people!

markus

Flee through escape doors..

Moi !

Mitäs viime aikoina tapahtunut ? :)

olin torstain ja perjantain töissä ( kyllä! ) töistä töihin.. tuurasin mr.burzumia pari päivää hänen hoitaessaan mustan pyörän bisneksiä, oli aika todella mielenkiintoinen kokemus todellakin, asiakkaat vaihtelivat hm.. no sanotaanko oli aika mielenkiintoisia asiakkaita!

Tänään päivä alkoi hikisellä kotikirkon ja taidetilojen siivouksella ( 4 tuntia ) siihen päälle yli kolme tuntia Callisto treenejä ensimmäistä kertaa mr.claptonin jälleen tapaamisella, tervetuloa! meinasi tippa tulla linssiin kun täräytettiin piisit käyntiin täydellä miehityksellä ( murmanskin peikon avustuksella tietenkin ) on se vaan hienoa kun on hyvä bändi ja mukavat soittokaverit..

Tosiaan ensi viikolla alkaa pieni Suomi rundi EF ja The ocean bändin kanssa, odotan innolla! Settilista vois ehkä olla suunnilleen tällainen

( ei järjestys )

In Session

Wormwood

The Fugitive

Rule the Blood

Providence

Dead Weight

Diasporas

Where the Spirits Tread

huomenna jatkuu treenaus..

jeps, eipä tässä sen kummempaa päivittelyä ole tällä kertaa..

Neil Young

The louvie Brothers

Melvins

Shroud of turin..

Hello people!

What happened yesterday ? nothing special.. except eating really good food made by Veli "Veliheavy" Nevalainen, accompanied by Mr. Shredder himself. Nice time.. and good friend kipe "makkaraperunalover" kindly offered me satan ( seytan ) really good food indeed.. pure protein some say ?

Today some gym and then went with my father to Martin Kirkko to listen Dosent Juha Hiltunen what he had to say about the Shroud of Turin. I Believed indeed! Heavy scientific fact!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rL_7_EHJbxw&feature=player_embedded

In Session we arrive..

Our good friends edited and mixed one song from our last year Tavastia show.. this was during our "providence" tour. Check it out

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9oh8P4CivDU&feature=player_embedded

Somebody knows how can i put these videos better here ? i mean "some fancy nerdy tips" :)

productive day :

Woke up 08.30, cleaned up the house little bit, went to a gym, went to a supermarket, had a coffee with the old man, played little bit with the effects, + 48 minutes of running with the wife.. :) now hot sauna.. not bad for a "first day of virkavapaa"

Last day in halinen, tomorrow new life starts ?

Hi !

Just a quick diary of this day..

I promise this is my last blog where i speak of my old work! :)

It always feels quite melancholic when some period ends in my life ( cant help about it, i am a melancholic person )

aah, i`m too lazy to write anything thoughful right now.. spent nice nostalgic day in my work and then went to sermon and played some praise music and spent nice evening with friends at our place eating some sausages and corn.. nice ending for a good day :)

Now going to watch some "Madmen" with my wife..

take care folks!

Last day in Halinen..

Tähän on tultu, onko oikea päätös vai väärä ? no luulen, että tämä on oikea päätös :)

Tottakai haikea olo tulee aina kun lähtee ja hyvästelee hyviä tyyppejä ( tiedätte keitä olette:) ja hyvän paikan.

Joku? ehkä ihmettelee miksi jätän virkani vuodeksi hyvästä työpaikasta.. syitä on monia, itseasiassa yhden tärkeimmistä selitinkin jo ekassa kirjoituksessani.

lyhyesti pähkinänkuoressa meinaan keskittyä pääosin musiikin tekemiseen

www.callistochaos.com ja www.myspace.com/weepingpilgrim ( uusin projektini ) plus suunnitteilla on ainakin 2 - 4 musiikkiprojektia minkä kehityksen näkee tulevaisuudessa ( black metallia, bluegrass/kantria, bluesia, kokeellista musaa?? ken tietää )

urheiluun, kotikirkon parissa puuhasteluun ja oon periaatteessa avoin melkein kaikelle mitä tulee eteen.. eli ehdotuksia otetaan vastaan :)

playlist tällä hetkellä

John Fahey ( 60 luvun tuotantoa kuunnellut )
Tuomari Nurmio
Mantric ( Extol kaverien uusi bändi )
Spirit Caravan
The mars volta ( ostin francis the mute vinyylin )
Buddy Miller ja paljon muuta sekalaista..

jeps, viimeisiä viedään..

Suomeksi vai Englanniksi ?

Moi !

Rupesin miettimään tosiaan, pitäisköhän ruveta suomeksi kirjoittamaan kuitenkin ? ehkä voisi kirjoittaa sekä että :)

Epätodellinen fiilis olla töissä ( toisiksi viimeinen työpäivä edessä ) yksi työkaveri ( tai kaksi oikeastaan) hyvästelty jo ja monta jäljellä. Tavallaan haikea olo tottakai on kun lähtee vuodeksi pois työpaikasta missä on ensimmäisen kerran jo ollut vuonna 2004, ja hyvät työkaverit on ollut ja oon saanut vapaita, palkattomia tosi hyvin ( joustava esimies ) ei valittamista!

Mutta niinkuin aiemmin sanoin, työ estää tällä hetkellä toteuttamasta sellasia unelmia ja haasteita mitä mulla on mielessä tosi paljon! Eli työssä itsessään ei ole mitään vikaa ollut ( no joo, ihan vaan pieniä ongelmia, mutta ne ei kaada maailmaa ) :)

Ajattelin jossain vaiheessa esitellä ja kertoa jutuista mitkä on tärkeitä omassa elämässä ( musiikki, bändit missä soitan, urheilu, seurakunta, kaverit etc etc ) En todellakaan mitään boostailemaan ala ihteäni, mutta jotain pientä infoa :)

En ole seuraillut paljon blogeja joten en tiedä mitä tänne tarkalleen pitää kirjoittaa :) työkaverit on seuraillut jonkun Jutan urheiluterveysblogia, siitä olen kuullut paljon. :)

jossain vaiheessa voisin kertoa omasta tupakanpolttokokeilu ajanjaksosta ( synkkää kamaa ) :) nyt päätin että satunnainen tupruttelu saa loppua... ( tekosyyt rupeaa loppumaan ) toki meinaan joskus esim kerran tai pari kuukaudessa ottaa jonkun rentoutus röökin, mutta ei enempää!

jeps.. takaisin töihin..

Faith without actions is dead!

I will start writing in English because it gives me the freedom to hide some things ( Coward), because Finnish language is too revealing, aah cut the crap English is international language!

As i told earlier that i will quit my daily job for an year ( maybe forever ) I have had this "calling" or "vision" over an year now and this is quite new thing for me because its quite strong sometimes, sometimes not that strong, you get the point.

I am 29 years old now and coming from a small town called Kokkola, which locates quite up in the northern part of Finland. I was raised in a Baptist Church in Kokkola and then in 2002 i moved to Turku with my friends along with my band Callisto. ( now i have to admit, i am not writer at all, my grammar sucks bad time etc etc ) please try to understand me :) I am not that rational and narrative, but i dont give a S!"###!""#!t I have this urge to write things off from my heart.

As my title says, my faith is really important to me ( ok to be honest sometimes i almost forgot the core of the whole trinity :) Little over a year ago i helped couple of my new friends in beginnings of their Christian life.. and did some other things also which i cant mention.. Then this feeling came to me "i have to quit my daily job to do something good for the people through love of god" ( and of course the other half of my time besides this "calling" thing is that i will be concentrating in music that i make in various projects ) third thing is of course really important also, i will be cleaning the house everyday, going supermarket and keeping things in shape that my dear wife can relax when She comes home from hard work ( all hail to my wife, whom without i couldnt do this year off from work thing)

Ok, back to my point. I have had this idea in my mind that "Faith without actions is dead" i didnt get it until the last months of my life and i have been Believer for a long time! So today i went to this movie http://www.grassrootsfilms.com/thehumanexperience/ which proved that i am in the right way and did right decision when i decided to take one year off from my work. It was very inspiring movie!

Ok, IF someone is reading this, i am not here to preach or saying someones life is going badly or you guys are doing wrong things or something.. i am just giving my personal thoughts to you and if someone is getting something out this writings it`s ok. :)

Feel free to ask something if you have something to ask, or you can advice me to be better writer or "blogger" ( horrible word ) :)

Take care!

Markus

First blog writing...

I will ( or try ) write as honest as i can about the things happening in my life..

My work will end in one week ( the place where i have been almost 6 years now ) i will start my "artistlife" ( loafer ) :) This "virkavapaa" will be one year, so i have to figure it out in this time what will i do in my future ( lots of music of course and serving Lord and people in their time of need etc etc.. )

i dont know heck about this blog thing, but i think i will learn in time..