Valhalla rising.. but the host of heaven descents..

indeed it feels sometimes like that.. not going to go any details.. but life is sometimes unbearable, and now i am speaking of all thing summoned around me ( my life, others lifes, etc etc ) normally i am not an person who complains, people know that. Now when i am recovering of my bands gig cancelling, something new comes ahead..

yesterday i went to see a movie Valhalla Rising! i really loved that movie, was perfect to my feelings at the moment.. so is wovenhand which is playing in my ears at the moment and plus Today will see the Eugene and his company! i love that band! even got the tattoo..

The beast he plays his harp He does deceive the hearts from the new WH album. i should be sleeping by now... I dont care if no-one reads this, i have founded that this is really good therapy for me in some weird way :) Take care people, i have been quite negative now.. but cant help about it. Tomorrow is better day! ( or this day ) Markus antero

By the pain i see in others..

Happines turns into darkness..

Yesterday was really nice day ( most of the day ) We were playing with Callisto for the first time in 5 months, really nice, spiritual and moody show indeed, but we had to skip one song and interupt our ritual, because one of our member was feeling ill and really sick ( not going to go to the details, its not important ) so the perfect day ended to darkness..

My feeling in general is really complicated, i am basically "free" now for an year but it seems that some wicked spirit is luring out in the corners and doing bad to my closest ones.. i am just figuring out what is the point to all this misery and sickness around me ?

Sometimes its hard to keep up the faith and see the point in all this ?

I just want to say we need to take care of our closest ones even though its really hard sometimes, but helping the others is keeping my spark of life burning..

I still believe in the son, without it there is no point in this life.. giving up is not the answer, had to rid off all apathy and cynical feelings..

Take care people!

markus

Flee through escape doors..

Moi !

Mitäs viime aikoina tapahtunut ? :)

olin torstain ja perjantain töissä ( kyllä! ) töistä töihin.. tuurasin mr.burzumia pari päivää hänen hoitaessaan mustan pyörän bisneksiä, oli aika todella mielenkiintoinen kokemus todellakin, asiakkaat vaihtelivat hm.. no sanotaanko oli aika mielenkiintoisia asiakkaita!

Tänään päivä alkoi hikisellä kotikirkon ja taidetilojen siivouksella ( 4 tuntia ) siihen päälle yli kolme tuntia Callisto treenejä ensimmäistä kertaa mr.claptonin jälleen tapaamisella, tervetuloa! meinasi tippa tulla linssiin kun täräytettiin piisit käyntiin täydellä miehityksellä ( murmanskin peikon avustuksella tietenkin ) on se vaan hienoa kun on hyvä bändi ja mukavat soittokaverit..

Tosiaan ensi viikolla alkaa pieni Suomi rundi EF ja The ocean bändin kanssa, odotan innolla! Settilista vois ehkä olla suunnilleen tällainen

( ei järjestys )

In Session

Wormwood

The Fugitive

Rule the Blood

Providence

Dead Weight

Diasporas

Where the Spirits Tread

huomenna jatkuu treenaus..

jeps, eipä tässä sen kummempaa päivittelyä ole tällä kertaa..

Neil Young

The louvie Brothers

Melvins

Shroud of turin..

Hello people!

What happened yesterday ? nothing special.. except eating really good food made by Veli "Veliheavy" Nevalainen, accompanied by Mr. Shredder himself. Nice time.. and good friend kipe "makkaraperunalover" kindly offered me satan ( seytan ) really good food indeed.. pure protein some say ?

Today some gym and then went with my father to Martin Kirkko to listen Dosent Juha Hiltunen what he had to say about the Shroud of Turin. I Believed indeed! Heavy scientific fact!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rL_7_EHJbxw&feature=player_embedded

In Session we arrive..

Our good friends edited and mixed one song from our last year Tavastia show.. this was during our "providence" tour. Check it out

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9oh8P4CivDU&feature=player_embedded

Somebody knows how can i put these videos better here ? i mean "some fancy nerdy tips" :)

productive day :

Woke up 08.30, cleaned up the house little bit, went to a gym, went to a supermarket, had a coffee with the old man, played little bit with the effects, + 48 minutes of running with the wife.. :) now hot sauna.. not bad for a "first day of virkavapaa"

Last day in halinen, tomorrow new life starts ?

Hi !

Just a quick diary of this day..

I promise this is my last blog where i speak of my old work! :)

It always feels quite melancholic when some period ends in my life ( cant help about it, i am a melancholic person )

aah, i`m too lazy to write anything thoughful right now.. spent nice nostalgic day in my work and then went to sermon and played some praise music and spent nice evening with friends at our place eating some sausages and corn.. nice ending for a good day :)

Now going to watch some "Madmen" with my wife..

take care folks!

Last day in Halinen..

Tähän on tultu, onko oikea päätös vai väärä ? no luulen, että tämä on oikea päätös :)

Tottakai haikea olo tulee aina kun lähtee ja hyvästelee hyviä tyyppejä ( tiedätte keitä olette:) ja hyvän paikan.

Joku? ehkä ihmettelee miksi jätän virkani vuodeksi hyvästä työpaikasta.. syitä on monia, itseasiassa yhden tärkeimmistä selitinkin jo ekassa kirjoituksessani.

lyhyesti pähkinänkuoressa meinaan keskittyä pääosin musiikin tekemiseen

www.callistochaos.com ja www.myspace.com/weepingpilgrim ( uusin projektini ) plus suunnitteilla on ainakin 2 - 4 musiikkiprojektia minkä kehityksen näkee tulevaisuudessa ( black metallia, bluegrass/kantria, bluesia, kokeellista musaa?? ken tietää )

urheiluun, kotikirkon parissa puuhasteluun ja oon periaatteessa avoin melkein kaikelle mitä tulee eteen.. eli ehdotuksia otetaan vastaan :)

playlist tällä hetkellä

John Fahey ( 60 luvun tuotantoa kuunnellut )
Tuomari Nurmio
Mantric ( Extol kaverien uusi bändi )
Spirit Caravan
The mars volta ( ostin francis the mute vinyylin )
Buddy Miller ja paljon muuta sekalaista..

jeps, viimeisiä viedään..

Suomeksi vai Englanniksi ?

Moi !

Rupesin miettimään tosiaan, pitäisköhän ruveta suomeksi kirjoittamaan kuitenkin ? ehkä voisi kirjoittaa sekä että :)

Epätodellinen fiilis olla töissä ( toisiksi viimeinen työpäivä edessä ) yksi työkaveri ( tai kaksi oikeastaan) hyvästelty jo ja monta jäljellä. Tavallaan haikea olo tottakai on kun lähtee vuodeksi pois työpaikasta missä on ensimmäisen kerran jo ollut vuonna 2004, ja hyvät työkaverit on ollut ja oon saanut vapaita, palkattomia tosi hyvin ( joustava esimies ) ei valittamista!

Mutta niinkuin aiemmin sanoin, työ estää tällä hetkellä toteuttamasta sellasia unelmia ja haasteita mitä mulla on mielessä tosi paljon! Eli työssä itsessään ei ole mitään vikaa ollut ( no joo, ihan vaan pieniä ongelmia, mutta ne ei kaada maailmaa ) :)

Ajattelin jossain vaiheessa esitellä ja kertoa jutuista mitkä on tärkeitä omassa elämässä ( musiikki, bändit missä soitan, urheilu, seurakunta, kaverit etc etc ) En todellakaan mitään boostailemaan ala ihteäni, mutta jotain pientä infoa :)

En ole seuraillut paljon blogeja joten en tiedä mitä tänne tarkalleen pitää kirjoittaa :) työkaverit on seuraillut jonkun Jutan urheiluterveysblogia, siitä olen kuullut paljon. :)

jossain vaiheessa voisin kertoa omasta tupakanpolttokokeilu ajanjaksosta ( synkkää kamaa ) :) nyt päätin että satunnainen tupruttelu saa loppua... ( tekosyyt rupeaa loppumaan ) toki meinaan joskus esim kerran tai pari kuukaudessa ottaa jonkun rentoutus röökin, mutta ei enempää!

jeps.. takaisin töihin..

Faith without actions is dead!

I will start writing in English because it gives me the freedom to hide some things ( Coward), because Finnish language is too revealing, aah cut the crap English is international language!

As i told earlier that i will quit my daily job for an year ( maybe forever ) I have had this "calling" or "vision" over an year now and this is quite new thing for me because its quite strong sometimes, sometimes not that strong, you get the point.

I am 29 years old now and coming from a small town called Kokkola, which locates quite up in the northern part of Finland. I was raised in a Baptist Church in Kokkola and then in 2002 i moved to Turku with my friends along with my band Callisto. ( now i have to admit, i am not writer at all, my grammar sucks bad time etc etc ) please try to understand me :) I am not that rational and narrative, but i dont give a S!"###!""#!t I have this urge to write things off from my heart.

As my title says, my faith is really important to me ( ok to be honest sometimes i almost forgot the core of the whole trinity :) Little over a year ago i helped couple of my new friends in beginnings of their Christian life.. and did some other things also which i cant mention.. Then this feeling came to me "i have to quit my daily job to do something good for the people through love of god" ( and of course the other half of my time besides this "calling" thing is that i will be concentrating in music that i make in various projects ) third thing is of course really important also, i will be cleaning the house everyday, going supermarket and keeping things in shape that my dear wife can relax when She comes home from hard work ( all hail to my wife, whom without i couldnt do this year off from work thing)

Ok, back to my point. I have had this idea in my mind that "Faith without actions is dead" i didnt get it until the last months of my life and i have been Believer for a long time! So today i went to this movie http://www.grassrootsfilms.com/thehumanexperience/ which proved that i am in the right way and did right decision when i decided to take one year off from my work. It was very inspiring movie!

Ok, IF someone is reading this, i am not here to preach or saying someones life is going badly or you guys are doing wrong things or something.. i am just giving my personal thoughts to you and if someone is getting something out this writings it`s ok. :)

Feel free to ask something if you have something to ask, or you can advice me to be better writer or "blogger" ( horrible word ) :)

Take care!

Markus

First blog writing...

I will ( or try ) write as honest as i can about the things happening in my life..

My work will end in one week ( the place where i have been almost 6 years now ) i will start my "artistlife" ( loafer ) :) This "virkavapaa" will be one year, so i have to figure it out in this time what will i do in my future ( lots of music of course and serving Lord and people in their time of need etc etc.. )

i dont know heck about this blog thing, but i think i will learn in time..