tiistai 13. heinäkuuta 2010

Someday ?

Hi to everyone!

on 7th day we went to Kokkola and played one show there, it was nostalgic time, maybe not the best place for a decent show, but it was ok. Had the chance to see some relatives and some old old friends from the past. It was weird to play in Kokkola ( actually it is Kälviä ) about 7 kilometres from the place where we played was Callisto first rehearshal place ( 1997 - 2000 ) me and Juho, the bass player of Callisto played in the same band before we formed Callisto in 2001. Weird feelings.. :) And i sow our old Rosetemple roadie Tero Nygård there, i havent seen that guy maybe in 6 - 7 years ? We drove right after the show to Turku, crazy ? yes.

on 9th day we went to island Nötö about 65 km from Turku with my wife and her grandparents, it was relaxing time!

I have some doubts that we manage to record Weeping Pilgrim material this month.. seems that time is flying too fast and nothing is happening ( ok we have songs ready and we have played them ) but that`s not enough. I think we have good songs and they deserve to be heard, there is too much shitty music around the world if i can be little cynical and rude...

Did i tell you its too hot in here! i cannot do the things that i want to do because of the heat.. damn heat! I love autumn and winter.

Still waiting my vision to be completed, or maybe i dont notice it that it`s already happening and i have done some parts of my work here, a lot is to be done, i know deep down inside me and it frustrates me sometimes.. but i have to be patient. But i dont complain ( little bit ) this is my dream come true time, but there is so much things that i want to do and many of the things needs some other people and usually i find myself being disappointed, but no can do, i know we have our own lives.. and my situation is blessed at the moment and i cannot demand the same amount of time that i have now from others.. complex situation.

Flowers are almost dying in our yard because of the heat.. but i found there was 2 -4 cherrys in our cherry three! :) my dear neighbour is offering me some food soon.. nice time!

i have found this writing really inspiring and therapeutic... its nice.

take care, bye!

playlist at the moment

- All the great Denver area bands
- Satyricon
- Meshuggah
- Anekdoten
- Deathspell Omega
- The walkabouts
- Dead can dance




maanantai 5. heinäkuuta 2010

Is there anybody out there ?

Kokkola trip was nostalgic! :) sow almost every relative i have there and some good old friends from the past. nice trip indeed. But to be honest, i have really good memories from my hometown, i lived there 21 years of my life. But at the moment i like live in Turku, no going back to north..

and then came the Tuska festival, i went there with my two good friends in crime... 3 main bands didnt disappoint me that i was plan to see: The unholy trinity of norwegian black metal : Satyricon, Ihsahn and Mayhem. Extreme music, the lyrics = not my cup of tea, but i have liked black metal for years now, some see big contradiction being christian and listening black metal, to be honest i dont care, there is so much bigger and important issues in life to worry about, that is my opinion. It was nice trip!

Then back to Turku.. it`s freaking hot in here, i dont like it. ok its nice, but now its too hot.

I think everyone who knows me, knows that i am man with big plans and high hopes.. its really hard because most of the time i see myself being let down and thinking too negative and my plans dont go like i want them to go.. but maybe that is the main problem, like i said earlier, I am trying too much.. but its hard to trust God sometimes and let him plan my life.... when something is not happening i let myself freedom to sink down to misery and self-pity which is really bad, i know it, because normally i am positive guy. i dont know, right at the moment, i dont see any purpose why i am spending this year "free" but i think its natural..

These lyrics express my feelings quite well at the moment :


ok, i dont have anything special to say anymore, people, stay true to your vision! dont let anyone take it away.






maanantai 28. kesäkuuta 2010

Hello!!

"juhannus" came and went.. not my cup of tea. Spent nice time with my wife and good friends by the lake of finnish nature!

oh and wednesday was birthday party of my good friend.. nothing more about that.. gone to oblivion! :) Enjoying the sun? maybe little bit, but i have to say i am more of an winter person, i have to admit it.

Going to tomorrow to Kokkola ( the place where i lived my life for 21 years ) and i am going to make that trip with my parents, huh, how scary is that ? :) We will meet some relatives and me the nostalgic can burst my emotions out!!! i will be back in thursday..

Weeping Pilgrim project is starting to get in shape.. maybe recording next month..

take care people!

keskiviikko 23. kesäkuuta 2010

Awake, my soul..


Frustration trying to ruin my days of glory..

Ok, i know i was planning all these big "things" what i am going to do when i am free from my daily work.. of course i know that not all things are going like I want them to go and of course i sometimes tend to forgot what HE wants me to do.. maybe i should concentrate and steer my thoughts away from myself and let myself to be taken by someone else.. but it`s hard.

Of course i have had the opportunity to make these "things" that i planned, the music thing, church activities plus much more.. but still i feel empty, like i am just wasting my time and not doing anything meaningful, or maybe i`m doing but i dont notice it so well, maybe i should be more objective?

ok, enough of this.. We had a good sessions with the Callisto yesterday, or maybe "good" is overrated word, but at least the moment when we played some new stuff was inspiring. Thought there was 2 guys missing, but this situation seem to be repeating more often these days.. no can do.

Today my good friend is aging, he is thirty now, we are helding a birthday party in my place today.. he actually dont know it yet.. gonna be fun time..

ok, but take care folks..

playlist at the moment :

Pink Floyd
Townes van Zandt
Neil Young
CSN
Awake, my soul ( The original soundtrack )
Emmylou Harris

lauantai 19. kesäkuuta 2010

Weeping Pilgrim


Hi to all!

I was hanging out with friends yesterday, eating good food and spending good time and i heard that some people read my blog ? Heh, i thought that nobody reads this, even some people in Italy.. I`m not going to let that affect to my "writings" ( i`m not saying that i dont care ) but to me this diary keeps me dated to things what i do in my free year from my daily job. I think it`s nice to read afterwards what has happened to my life in past days, weeks and months. Maintaining my sanity so to speak.

So what has happened to my last days? First of all in 9th of june i went to see Brian "head" Welch, formely the guitar player of Korn, the band i was listening back in the 90`s, as everyone knows he left Korn in 2005 or 2006 because he couldnt be in the band anymore because he became Christian and wanted to pursuit his own art and vision. Normally i don`t get it always when big rock stars change their entire life when they become born again Christians, but after reading the book of Brian, i understood it all. Sometimes man has to make some big and maybe difficult decisions in their lives when something more powerful than we speaks them to do.

Maybe something like this happened to me when i decided to take year off from daily work and dedicate to this following year to making music and the other part: following what God wanted to tell me.. ok i dont want to sound too fundamental, but i HAD to follow the voice that was speaking to me and to be honest it feels right, even though i dont know all the things what He has in store for me.. time will tell. The "head" show was nostalgic and nice experience even though i am not that big fan of that kind of music anymore, but the thing in Christian music has bothered me for years, the music always comes last, lyrics first, dont get me wrong the lyrics are important but i have always thought that music should be good and high quality then you can build lyrics to the top of good music, get the point ?

Speaking of music, besides callisto where i write music and play, i have had this new project that started out last year "Weeping Pilgrim" we have took one step further towards the actual recordings.. we have loads of songs in store, and couple of days ago we met this nice guy who is going to record a demo or Ep for us ( depending how everything sounds after the recordings ) You can check some really raw demos from our myspace page www.myspace.com/weepingpilgrim yes, it is a lot different than Callisto music, but that was my main goal anyway.

Nothing really special happening at the moment, just doing sports, making music and spending time with my wife and good friends. Oh and one thing ( really small thing ) i started to sell some second hand goods in flea market, all the money is going to my homechurch "Kotikirkko" which i have attended last 7 - 8 years.. i think it`s really good thing because Kotikirkko is really good place and we are always lacking money..

listening at the moment a band called Watain, which lyrics i really dont appreciate but the music is quite ok.. it`s really weird, i read one interview of them and one thing what was headlining the whole interview was how much they give credit to satan and dedicate their music to glorify satan.. ok this sounds weird but i tend to speak the truth and honestly as possible always, like i do know. Even though i am Christian and i play music, my band(s) have always maintained certain "Spiritual" aspects which i really like, but have always tried not to speak too loud about our beliefs ( to some bands it fits, dont get me wrong ) because it`s really irritates people, you get the point? ( all the bible bangers etc etc ) I like to write things that i pursuit in my life but this faith that i have is really personal so thats why i like let people to think and digest a while about the lyrics and then make their decisions about the band, is their music good? do i appreciate what they sing? its really hard to get into band when you are immediately being forced to hear or see some beliefs, politics, activism, satanism etc etc..

I know that example in the metal world it`s really ok to speak about mutilation of people, gore things, satan worshipping, etc etc.. and in the black metal world the lyrics are really important and it seems that the main thing is that the bands have big urge to get the opportunity to speak LOUD what they want to say about their beliefs. But when it comes to Christianity, everything is forbidden, even though many bands including Christian members dont even preach in their shows, write gospel type of lyrics, etc you get the point ? ok, i know this is really old issue, but always relevant? and i am not here to teach anyone, just throwing some ideas.. you go figure it out yourself! let me know what you think.. :)

Ok, i will go and see some movie with my neighbours and with my wife.. "it`s raining today" like Scott Walker is singing.. it fits for me, i am not that big fan of sunny weather, ok its nice, but this is ok..

ok, i will try to update this more often, but i think its useless to write something that has no point.. or not..

take care people!


tiistai 8. kesäkuuta 2010

Marathon

What happened to yesterdays? :)

4th of june went to Stockholm with my wife and some good friends ( me and the friends mostly having fun ) my wife had been preparing for a marathon for a long time.. 5th of june came and what a day it was! There was like 18.00o people running 42 km!!! almost 5000 finnish people...

My wife did a good job there! rest of the trip we were just hanging out and eating good food and of course when you are in Stockholm you have to go shopping! :)

Tomorrow going to see Brian "head" welch in nosturi, helsinki.. former Korn guitar player playing his solo-material. Lets see what happens..

Went to running today, didnt went so well that i wanted.. it is like this sometimes.. :) Maybe going to gym also today.. lets see..

keskiviikko 2. kesäkuuta 2010

Starting to get in the mood

of the new beginning..

What happened in the past days ?

Sunday we went back to Tampere ( we had our show there in the same place on wednesday ) "back to the accident place" so to speak.. Now it was time for the Wovenhand show..

What a show! but i have to say seeing them 2 times in Stockholm was better than this show.. i am not saying that this one was worse or anything but earlier was little bit better.. DEE leaded the ritual like a possessed prophet of doom! that guy has some inner demons to let it out for sure.

They played maybe 4 - 6 new songs, couple songs from Consider, nothing from the first one? maybe one from ten stones, 2 - 4 from Mosaic.. i had my mom and dad with me + 50 other Turku residents maybe ? :) crazy Turku people..

monday was the gym / wife / taco day.. plus i was having farewells with my new friend maurizio evangelista which i met in my "old" working place.. nice guy. He moved to Helsinki.. good luck man!

yesterday went running with wife and after that did some walleyboll with my friends in Kotikirkko.. nice day. + recorded 3 - 4 demos of new Callisto songs and sent them to other guys via email.. i have something like 10 - 12 new "songs" to new Callisto album, other guys have also some songs, time will tell which ones will be ending to "vol 4" :)

yep, nothing so special happening at the moment.. quiet life..